Friday, April 27, 2007

I made the call

I just accepted the great job opportunity and will be starting in almost 3weeks. That's not very long to have everything packed up, give notice to my current part time job and say all of the goobyes. Since God is calling, pack and go is what will happen. I am excited about the new chapter in my story and to see what life is like not working for a church. Adventure, here I come!

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Light in the tunnel

I have spent many hours on the road interviewing at various jobs and flying to random cities recently. At this point, it looks like just more packing is going to happen as I wait to see about job offers. There are a couple options at this point, and the waiting game is upon me, just seeing if they offer a position and if it is a good fit. There is one job I would really like. It would be working with a great group of people in a place where I would be really challenged.

Some of the jobs, I just do not really want. They are at unhealthy places, where healthy boundaries for my life, family & friends do not exist.

One position is a joke. There is the expectation of many hours of work, some just sitting around waiting for people to need you, pretty much almost in the middle of no where. Boundaries between work and everything else do not exist. Support is imaginary, as is supervision or professional growth. Now if it was financially good, I could go there and get paid alot to do barely anything constructive, but the wage is significanly below competitive for the field, and it's lower than low.

However, I have to ask myself, could that be what God is opening up and where I am called to be for now? Moreso, financially do I need to take this position? It is something more than now and I have responsibilities.

The answer is no! God does call people to unhealthy difficult situations, as I was in the past. But now God is not calling me to that place, which blatently has red flags all over it. Red flags are God's way of saying, hold on, check this out further, and when there are so many, "DANGER!DANGER! AVOID THIS ROAD!" When they are so obvious, it becomes time to run far the other way.

Now I wait, wonder and pray. By the end of the week, I should hear from everyone and wee what God has revealed. I may be off to new great job, ok job, but not bad job. If the bad job is the only option, the bags are being packed anyway and it looks like the move will be to the old family homestead.

Friday, April 6, 2007

All Truth is God's Truth!

So I was eating some pizza and had a thought. Here is the logic I came across in my little feeble mind. All Truth is God's truth, right? so if that is true (which it is) ... then if Jesus is God's Son and Jesus is the Saviour ..(which He is) then He is either the Saviour of all the world or He isn't.

You can't Add qualifiers to truth. Here are some qualifiers I have heard with Jesus being the Saviour.

Jesus is the Saviour to all the world, but especially the Jews because they are God's people and if they don't accept Jesus when the End times come, they still get a Get Out of Jail FREE card.

Or this other qualifier, Jesus is the Saviour but there can be other paths that lead to God. What are these people thinking? It seems that the whole dispensational and universalism views have holes in them. Guess I should be getting back to eating my pizza.

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Self Care

It seems like there is no time even for simple things right now in the midst of searching and hard decisions. Between 2 part times jobs which God graciously provided, and the full time search for a job it's been difficult.
There is this innate guilt in the job search when I spend time doing anything other than job hunting. But there are only so many hours that can be spent looking at the job websites everyone else is looking at, and deciding whether or not to apply for jobs that I am not really qualified for.
That is when all my lessons from God about self care come into play. It was a difficult lesson, but I learned that if I did not rest and spend time away from my ministry and teens, that I would quickly burn out and be of no use to them. If I was not growing closer to God then I wouldn't be able to lead them.
Despite all the lessons, self care wasn't easy in ministry, as there is always something else to do, always someone who needs you, always a teen who you could be spending time with, especially those in crisis mode.
Self care is not too easy right now, as my heart is slowly healing from the wounds of ministry and God sometimes seems extremely absent in the job hunt, which leads me to search and search more for job possibilities. Then other times, it is amazing to see God opening up doors for conversations, and allowing me job interviews, and it becomes a little easier.
This time, unlike in early years, I know how to take care of myself better and to make sure to spend time with God. Plus, I thankfully have a great support system of family and friends to help me balance and point out God working in my life when I cannot see it. But do you?